I felt like decorating myself.

Hypomania is FUN. You get all the nice effects of mania (good feelings, energy, creativity) without all the bad stuff (hallucinations, delusions of grandeur, reckless driving, etc). I was a bit hypomanic yesterday, so after burning off some energy sorting and discarding items in our loft, I did the dishes, washed the comforter, and then put on some music and set about washing and coloring myself!

I straightened my hair and then tried using my purple and blue hair dyes on it. As you can see, they don't really work all that well, but you can see a bit of blue here and there. The purple was very hard to see even when fresh, alas. All of this will wash out in the shower, and I can use makeup remover to get the blue spots off. I just used a stick of eyeliner/eyeshadow that my sister got from Sephora when she was going as Re-l Mayer for Halloween. Some of you have already seen these, but some haven't, so I thought I'd post them. I actually wore this stuff to work today, and it was a big hit! Everyone really liked it.

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Songwriting continues

I've got two so far. I was working on the second one last night before the cold meds really took effect, and managed to revise it a bit. I'm still not any good at rhyming, but I don't think I care... I'll try to figure out some music for this second one. The first one only has a melody, nothing else, and I've got to flesh that out, too. There is so much work involved! Now that our piano is tuned, I can use it to help me decide how the songs should go.

I had a dream that told me if I wanted to write songs, I had to do it while sitting at the piano. Sometimes my brain is very straightforward about stuff. Like when I was little and sucked my thumb. I used to carry around a clean cloth diaper and tickle my nose with it while I sucked my thumb, and that was a lovely combination. My mom wanted me to stop, so she asked me how she could get me to do that, and I told her to take away my diaper. If she did that, I would stop. So she did, I did, and that was it, no fussing or anything. Maybe my brain's got the right idea about songwriting now.

It's hard for me to write songs about happy stuff. Usually I get them coming to me when I'm in the grip of huge emotional waves, and those tend to be negative, so I get writings full of blazing anger and despairing darkness. Maybe if I tried writing while hypomanic I'd end up with more positive stuff? I don't know. Anyway, it's not like anything really tangible has come of this yet. I just thought I'd let y'all know that I'm working on it, and my musical project has not been forgotten.

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