Cockold or Masochist

I have friends, my friends have friends, lovers, owners, subs, and those friends have other friends.

And I like to hear about them all.

What does that make me?  Am a simply a voyeur, or a cuckolded cyber-lover?

A friend called me an emotional masochist because I follow the blogs of women I fell in love with, yet they are with others and recount their affairs and adventures and I am at once saddened and aroused by their conquests.  I, we, most/some/all of us watch from afar as others find love, sex, passion that we lack.  Others look at us and wish for the family, job, home, or children that might be ours. 

So why do I punish myself by reading her blog anymore, or hers, or his, when all he does is write stories about fucking her.  I want to know.  I'm a masochist and an emotional voyeur. 

Tell me what you said...
Tell me how it felt...
Tell me what he did to you....

Tell me....

I will read every post you put up, and it will break my heart each time, but I'm never going away.
The pain is worth it.
And so are you.