What day is it? Oh, right. Thursday.

This week has been really surreal in terms of time. It keeps feeling like every day is at least three. I'll go to work in the morning, then do gardening or archery when I get home, and then hang out inside listening to Patrick play until it's time to go to bed. Each of those seems like it takes an entire day. I don't know. It's kind of nice feeling like my days are really long. Maybe it's because of the increased sunlight? During the winter up here we don't get much light at all. You can both arrive at work and leave work in the dark, which makes it very confusing.

Anyway, I'm enjoying the few days without rain we've been getting! (Oh, and spring break, because traffic is SOOOO much better with all those people off the roads.) We shot a bunch of arrows last night, and discovered that I've got a dominant left eye to go with my dominant right arm, so that makes for a fun time trying to aim. Whenever I actually try to aim by lining up the arrow and the string, I can't hit anything. Except a tree root. Patrick had to dig the arrow out of it. If I just pretend the bow is an extension of myself and I'm reaching out to touch the target, I either get pretty tight groupings or bullseyes (or both, obviously).

Maybe this is the same thing that happens to me with music and chemistry. Whenever I try to analyze it or consciously try to figure out how I should do something, it doesn't work. I had a horrible time in college with inorganic chemistry, but organic came as naturally as breathing. It was all conceptual as opposed to math-based. With music, I never have any idea what key I'm singing in, but I'm always right on. Whenever I try to focus on the particulars and learn the scales' key signatures or whatever, it just upsets me and my brain sets up a block. I get ten kinds of panicked and nothing good comes of it. Why? No idea.

Are any of the rest of you like this? Are there things that you can't try to analyze the why of, but that you just have to do instinctively? I wish I could do it the way Patrick does. He learned how to consciously aim the bow and immediately saw a huge improvement. Me, I just have to figure out what my body should feel like when I'm trying to hit a particular spot on the target. Takes a while. Equally effective? Maybe...